hrmmm.

Do you ever feel like the you you are needs to be changed but not necessarily because you want it to? That's exactly how I feel, as though I need to change me but not because I see something wrong with it but because I feel as though I will be left behind and deemed naive, not up with everyone else. To be honest, I never really gave this topic much thought until others started making me feel like I wasn't with it.

I am naturally very reserved and conservative when it comes to certain things which leads me to sometimes be perceived as overly innocent and childish. It is this quality which I think may need some tweaking. I thought about how to remedy this issue without going against things that in my mind are set in stone and decided I would try to be more outgoing and maybe more spontaneous. I just want to try new things and not be afraid to put myself out there.

We'll see.

Also, this has nothing to do with the first thing I wrote, but, I hate when you know you are being played second fiddle to someone else. Nothing bothers me more.

cheers.

Jordan